This is the big holiday where everyone joins together. I remember my dad use to wake up early at 6 in the morning to go to the park, we use to rent a big pavilion at the park and My mom and sister used to come later with the food and pop. We used to have so much fun swimming in the dirty lake even. Playing volley ball, and cards, eating all day because the food would just be coming all day. It's sad but after my dad died alot of our tradition had changed, I guess that is what I miss about this big holiday. It's funny though when people leave from your life , you would never expect your life to change that much but it does... the few things he liked to do was have the family gatherings. I love summer though , no jacket, no shoes, sandals every day all day, ice-cream,smoothies, drive- ins, park events, swimming, and etc.........

I seen the other day and made me so angry. The supreme court justice says that men or women who rape youger children cannot receive capital punishment! I say they took away the lives of some one who is defenseless, why shouldn't they receive harsh punishment? People who don't believe the death penalty for any crime probably has not had anything done to them. I myself have forgiven, but I will never forget. I had counseling, but I don't think that ever helped. It just felt like I wasted 7 years of my life. I think  writing my feelings helped me the most ,talking,and alot of crying. One thing I regret is never letting my dad know about the things that happened to me, I think he would have understood me alot better than he did, as a matter a fact my dad really didn't even know me at all. Remember for everyone who is reading ,you  need to speak what's on your mind, so you will have no regrets later.

I was thinking of the 4th and Family gatherings. Good food and tons of fun. Well due to my mom just coming out of the hospital , we probably won't go to any park and barbecue I will probably just bake at home. at the end of this entry I will provide the most best baked ribs and sweet potato recipe. I am glad my mom home, and so is she. She has a tear in her right hip. She has a lot to take care of. We used to go to the park and swim in the dirty lakes and didn't die from it. When we celebrated the 4th it was an all day and night celebrating. I wish I could go back to being a kid again, I didn't have to worry about the bills, kids, or people dying on me. Well here is something you can make for the fourth.

1 slab of pork ribs
spray your pan put 3 cups of water in the bottom of the pan
cover with foil cook at 350 degrees a good 2 hours to get them nice and tender
then uncover and put your sauce on
sauce is
1 bottle of famous Dave's rich and sassy sauce and 1 bottle western dressing with 1 cup of brown sugar mix well. pour sauce over ribs leave uncovered and cook for a 1/2 an hour longer.

boil your corn on the cob and add 1 cup of sugar to it.

sweet potatoes 4 medium size potatoes put foil down on rack in oven, cook for about 1 hour or until cooked all the way through. take off peels  (you can pre cook your potatoes before your ribs)
1 stick of butter, 2 cups of brown sugar, 1 teaspoon of nutmeg, 1 teaspoon of Cinnamon. mix with sweet potatoes add walnuts if preferred(reheat if necessary

Hi everyone , It is finally staying in the 80's up here in Minnesota. We had the most fun yesterday my daughter and I. We made strawberry and banana smoothie. We read a good book and made smoothies. I also wanted to say a happy birthday to my sister -in-law and brother -in- law (which their names are Janice and Eric ), I hope they had themselves a nice birthday. I hope everyone is enjoying the nice weather. Don't forget to just stop and take a break from all the running around we tend to get caught up in. have fun and enjoy making the smoothies.

7 ice cubes
8 frozen strawberry's
1 banana
4 small scoop's of vanilla ice-cream
1/3 of half & half
4 tablespoons of sugar or your choice to add 4 packets of splenda
makes 2 smoothies and enjoy

I made my famous meat loaf,  I'll give everyone the recipe. get the family or friends to dinner tonight or tomorrow for dinner.

3 pounds of beef makes 2 loaf
3pounds off beef
1/2 Small vadalia onion cut into small squares
crush 1 pack of graham cracker's & 1 pack of saltine crackers
3 eggs
2 tablespoon of garlic salt } it's up to how much garlic you want, I like mine with alot of garlic
1teaspoon of salt
1teaspoon of pepper
then mix, spray your pan, then make 2 loafs shape like footballs
add 2cups of water to the pan, then cover with foil
cook at 400 degrees for 1hour and 15min, then uncover
spread ketchup on the tops of loafs, then cook for 20min more
take out uncover and let sit for 5min. then serve and enjoy!

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I am mesmerized by what I'm watching. My heart speaks without even whispering a word. White and pink orchids ruffle through the breeze. My heart is in attunement with the attractiveness with nature. I see an eagle perched on a fence with the cool breeze blowing off the lake as the eagle preys onto its' next fresh fish. With the broad of its' wings stretch out. Goose pimples form on the tops of my skin as I watch the gracefulness of its' glide through the air, as I watch with awe. knowing this was only but a once in a life time opportunity of display, as I watch this eagle fly away.

by joey

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I grabbed my heart because it's falling apart. You held me through the rain and got me through my pain. Held my hand when I needed you. I know your not there, no one understood but you. I see your love is still here because ,my love for you won't go away. People sometimes don't understand of how I can't stop thinking of a man that was my whole world circle and full. I see you in a field full of daisies and deep blue sky. Loving your life without me near. I'm wondering what your life is like there. It's something I can't understand but just wanting to hold your hand , to let go of my fear that your gone.

by joey

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dispassionate people don't know me, they have never walked in my shoes, seen the shit I've seen through these eyes. I don't dissimulate myself. I'm real! Cut to the core! I dissever myself from the world because they don't understand my life. People say I'm disqualified for the work that I applied. I don't play woe as me, because there has been disruption in my life since the age of 5. MOLESTED,RAPED,ROBBED,DRUGS, ALCOHOL, all before the age of 15. High school drop out. you haven't seen what I seen.GOD GIVE ME SOME DIVINE INTERVENTION. GIVE ME A MYSTICAL SIGN THAT ONLY YOU CAN RELATE OF MY FATE IN THIS WORLD. What journey I have to seek in order to have peace and tranquility or maybe the qualifications just to be me.

by joey

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A face that I cannot express of such deep disappointment of my own childhood past. A taste of toxin runs through my blood of touchy subjects that should be left unsaid. Seeing tears that rolls down my moms face of her dismay, not being able to control her emotions of tasteless disappointments of her own seeds, of trying to make sense of so many selfish acts. Taking advantage of her passive maternal hope. She becomes frustrated by not being able to express her true feeling without hurting other peoples pride, Not a whisper falls down upon the crowd for my mom don't have the strength to even mutter the disappointments.

by joey

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Everyone has a path, a journey, a purpose. A life of lost souls that live amoungst us. Driven to a higher person. My heart aches for peace. Healing earth would only be a miracle from god. My hands are tired, My legs are weak. God please give me the strength to keep searching for peace.

by joey